I asked T why it was easier to disappear than to tell me what was going on. Here is his answer.
Why? Because I had a lil problems going on, I was frustrated with a lot of things going on within myself to the point it was weighing me down. I knew if I came to you with it I would have to express more things that's going on and sometimes I just didn’t want to talk bout it. I just wanted to be alone to find myself and get over certain situations. Plus I felt like i had already put enough of my problems on you and also my worries on you so I had to find ways to get over things alone.
Slowly, he started disappearing again. This time, when he would come in, he complained a lot about the pain he was in. See, T hadn't been shot only one time, it had been 8 times. One of the bullets was still lodged in his leg and when he would sit in the wrong position it would bother him. It had been happening more and more lately. He finally went to the hospital and asked to have it removed. It was a risky procedure because of where it was located. T wanted it done anyway because he couldn’t stand the pain anymore. He had the procedure done and was healing fine. I was talking with him every day and thought we were on a good path again. Then I got a call late one night from another employee saying that T had been locked up again. I was floored! How could this be happening? He was barely able to walk after his surgery! And - I was in the middle of writing a speech for an event I would be speaking at the next day. It was focused on T and the progress he had made, and now, he was in jail. How could I talk about what an influence I had been when he was in jail? I just went forward with my speech and barely made it through it without crying. This one hurt. I didn’t want him to go backwards, I wanted forward motion.